I carry you with me...

I'm choosing to kick of this blog post with a Brian Andreas "Story People" story.

"I carry you with me into the world, into the smell of the rain & the words that dance between people & for me, it will always be this way, walking in the light, remembering being alive together."

I believe that Mr. Andreas wrote this story to remember a loved one who has passed away. Why then would I use it in my blog? Simply put, this story is about celebrating life!  To me, it speaks about the little life growing inside me at this very moment. I am in awe! I carry a little person with me everyday, talking to him/her about what I see, what I know, and drinking in the world around me, knowing that I'm taking breaths for two, seeing things for two, and yes, even EATING things for two. My life is no longer just about me; it's about someone much smaller, sharing a space with me, sharing a life with me. We are alive together.

To me, that is one of the coolest things. I think about this story when I look down at my "not-quite-flat" belly. Sometimes it's easy to forget that I'm pregnant when there is no physical evidence. Ok, there's evidence, don't get me wrong, but this is not the time to talk about all the semi-nasty body issues caused by the raging hormones. My body is not showing, but my mind and heart confirm that there is another person that I carry with me. He/She and I are alive together.

Ok, forgive the sappiness. Sometimes, I can't help it. Today marks my sister Kira's 12th birthday. Again, I am amazed by life. I can't believe that I've gotten to know such a cool, stunning, talented, and amazing person for 12 years. The miles that separate us make me sad, but again, she is someone that I carry with me.

I went to the doctor a couple of hours ago, just to check on Baby R. His/Her little heart is beating at 156 bpm! I have to say that one of the coolest parts about today's visit (aside from the fact that I didn't have to do a "clean catch" during my pee test) was when I heard kiddo's heart beating. I couldn't hear it very well, but that was because my heartbeat and his/her's were overlapping. Obviously mine is louder and slower and I could hear it very well, but behind the sound of mine was the little fluttering sound of my kidlet. I nearly started bawling right there. So unbelieveably cool. I was simply awestruck.

"I carry you with me into the world..."