Suckiness

So, I'm sitting alone at my desk, eating a salad. This may not seem odd, but the rest of my colleagues have decided to dine out and have kind of forgotten me. I guess I'm still STILL not forgiven for that time I blogged about being upset about people being uncomfortable with my breastfeeding. I doubt at this point I ever will be and I know that's defeatist, but it's all I've got currently. I feel so alone in this place. I'm not the type to invite myself into a group of people, and I also don't like being tacked on, like "oh Valerie are you staying here for lunch" while those asking are already in coats and nearly out the door. Whatever, I just have to not care. I just wish sometimes that I'd never voiced that I felt bad about breastfeeding and its perception. I'll just do that alone thing...I'm good at it whether I want to be or not.